Speak up Your MIND

As the sun sighs and slowly disappears, Smoke swirls and heavy smell of the weed, Recollecting a thousand lies and fate of time, To be forgotten with finished glasses of wine. Often, marred by the roads less traveled, Always, d iseased by fortunes misconstrued, He lives a life that doesn't exist, not even real, And drifts in silence, in a world so cold and lost. Confused over why he travelled all way till here, Whether to draw a smile or maybe drops of tear, Mistakes he has made plenty, including loving you, However hard he tries, forgiveness is always on due. Blurred ahead, but cleaner mark of where he had been, Fear runs down the spine, if he thinks of going back again, But he is not dead yet and he is not in the ground, Just a lost traveler, a lost traveler down that lost highway. .........counting the days but never to be found again! .........counting the days but never to be found again!! .........counting the days but never to be

Yesterday When the day started without you, And you were nowhere to be seen Heart cried in sync with my eyes All filled with tears for you and me While I thought of many things Wanted to but, we didn’t get to say Today Mesmerize through all the yesterdays, Good ones and bad, all that we shared, How I wish, if I could relive yesterday, Just even for a while, I'd say good-bye and kiss you And maybe see you smile. And I think of smiles and laughter I might miss some tomorrow, I thought of you, and when I did, My heart was filled with sorrow. For emptiness and memories, Would take the place of me. Tomorrow S ince each day is the same way, There's no longing for the past. So, w hen tomorrow starts without you, I w on't care to think we're far apart, For every time I think of you, You  are right here, in my heart! You  are right here, in my heart!! You  are right here, in my heart!!!

Don’t be fooled by what you see Coz, I wear a mask, a thousand masks Afraid to take off and none of them is me Coz, inside me lays piles of burning faces A cold war’s on between mind and heart The very thing I cry out for,  I fight against   And mask is precisely my salvation That can liberate me from myself F rom the barriers, painstakingly erect Glittering but empty parade of masks Probing happiness in broken pieces of life Inside a mask I cry and over the other I smile Irrational journey, hopelessly endless tracks The nearer it seems, the blinder it strikes back Often I give up, but for survival I need to lie Covered inside masks, I am gonna die Please listen, try to hear what I'm not saying Coz, I wear a mask, a thousand masks Afraid to take off and none of them is me Coz, inside me lays piles of burning faces! Coz, inside me lays piles of burning faces!! Coz, inside me lays piles of burning faces!!!

Standing on the edge, I scream Still, no voice as if it’s a dream Darkness around, I can't be saved Tides in mind to swim against I put myself down upon my knees Oh I beg, I beg, for the truth Just come out of things unsaid Break the ice frozen in the head Hidden trouble that can't be named Unseen pain waiting to be tamed I give up, I can't wait anymore Oh I beg, I beg, for the truth Confessions, that were never made Love and hate, felt but never said Wake up, curse the missed old times May cure or deepen my burnt bruises Not anymore, I can hold the breathe Oh I beg, I beg, for the truth! Oh I beg, I beg, for the truth!! Oh I beg, I beg, for the truth!!!

A stare, a smile Language of the eyes One dance, one touch Felt warmth in the heart The walk, the silence Love seemed in the air A stranger, a gentle look As our lives engaged One life, one soul Mingled in fragrance of love The week, the moments Happiness in single breathe Time moved on its pace Had to walk with memories to trace Solitude, mind looks for a face Silence, eyes look for hopeful rays Cruel life ends the golden days Leaving being the bold marks Unforgettable - a week love! Unforgettable - a week love!! Unforgettable - a week love!!!

I just celebrated my 26 th Birthday [a wonderful one, I thank all my friends for the surprises, company and good wishes]. God!!! I have already lived a quarter of years, nearly half of   my life [average life of Nepalese is 67 as per some statistics by UNICEF], 4 yrs older than Mesut Oezil , the phenomenal player who helped Germany kick the ass of England in a recent World Cup encounter. Facts and figures really say I am getting older. Do I need to fuss over it? Actually I am not fussing over it, neither do I have any sad feeling that I am getting older. Some words from a popular number -something I really believe: Coz there's no tomorrow just a picture perfect day That last a whole lifetime and it never ends Coz all we have to do is hit rewind So let's just stay in the moment smoke some weed drink some wine Reminisce talk some shit forever young is in your mind Leave a mark they can't erase, neither space nor time So when the director yells cut, I'

In my life, few can bring the warmth That I could find in the embrace And little more needed to bring love Than the smile that begins on face. You always had your own troubles Yet some time to wipe a tear, Or give reasons to make me laugh, That became more precious through the years. In the memories, I cuddle you forever The walk of life and your words of care Even today, feel the love in some empty space That nothing can ever fill or can replace Life cheated us, when we were far away One thing I will regret, for rest of my days But I thank god for he sent me my GRANDPA As our legacy from above, To share the moments of our life, As extra measures of your blissful love! As extra measures of your blissful love!! As extra measures of your blissful love!!!

Looking out of the window, I saw some faces Waiting for the love, smiles flood in the braces I wrote a song to sing in the beat of heart In the name of love seeking a point to start A sigh, one frown, crying soft saddened tears Storms of memories - through bleak yesteryears Caressing the ground, sing the beat of heart Into the sun seeking love's brand new start Heart bleeds quietly in times of loneliness Yet it yearns to find warmth and happiness An end, drops of tears, heart twisting pain Tons of promises - got washed away with rain Staring into the horizon, let memories to fade Once again ready to share love but not to trade Often eyes gaze endlessly through abysmal blackness Yet they yearns to find the hopefully drab brightness A heart, one life, not for pain and waste with cries Bunch of people – love them with strong friendly ties Dance in the tunes of life, let happiness mingle in the air Forgive quickly, laugh uncontrollably: suppress all the tears When the ears listen ea

“I don’t love you the way I did some weeks ago that's true.” Marinha typed her message. “I’ve kinda had this feeling… and was having the fear that I‘d lose you soon” Stephen replied with a heavy heart. “But….… I don’t mean…” “Ok, things aren’t going fine and this distance isn’t helping us either. Lets end every hope but lets be friends” “Ummmm… I mean I didn’t stop loving you and you're saying: ok now friends ” “....coz I know its decreasing... why would you spare little love for me?” “Coz I know how good it was before. And I still wanna hold you” “Dear, I know it’s troubling you now. But soon things will be fine. And moreover, I promise you I will always be there for you whenever you want me. It’s being really hard for me, but still I want things to be the way it makes you happy. And in your happiness I will find happiness for me . Soon you will find someone much better than me. Don’t spare little love for me. Give all your love to him and I’m sure he will give u all his love.

A walk into the trees, enjoying the song of the bees Tap foot with chirping of birds and rustling of leaves Smiling the way the flowers bloom when sun shines A moment to forget the poor life full of care and tears Lie down on the meadows looking at the clear sky Feeling free as birds when I see a flock pass by Clouds appear to make faces of all people whom I love A moment to forget the poor life full of pain and goodbye Enjoying the games children play with laughter full of cheers Mother’s love in the cuddle, when one falls and breaks into tears Purest of all relations, nothing to ask for nothing to take A moment to forget the poor life full of compromises to make I find moment to appreciate a smile that begins in eyes Heart can feel warmth of love in hugs full of friendly ties Blissful stare in the reminiscences that turns into a long gaze A moment to forget the poor life full of twist and awful mazes A moment to forget the poor life full of twist and awful mazes! A moment to forg

I found some really nice pictures..would love to share with everyone. 'Some pictures that tell the story of my life' source:  http://sarcasticthing.deviantart.com/gallery/ Everyone hides behind a mask. Either oneself or someone close knows the real face I m here and i see how happy you two are and i still stand here feeling so bad about how i can never have the one i want. seems i'll never find someone like you two did People think that I'm happy coz i often share smiles with them but im crying in the inside. :'( I m always the odd one out. cause i'm not normal, i'm not perfect. n m starting to think m not good :|

With all my wishes, on your special day I pray a longer life with every breath you take And success n realities of all the dreams you make With love, warmth and sunshine in each every day I wish life not to be a burden but a nice memory lane With all my wishes, on your special day I pray god to bestow laughter, joy and smile Lots of happiness that stays throughout the life And your birthday brings all these and more Filling life with surprise and joys galore With all my wishes, on your special day I extend warm regards for being a great friend And for always being there till the very end In the bond of the strength of our relationship I hope you'll find courage to move amid hardship With all my wishes, on your special day Nothing but only words are all i have to share But it’s a way for me to say, my fiend I do care At times when you need, you can find me just there To make all your troubles disappear and fill with cheer ! To make all your troubles disappe

These pictures i had taken last year at different dates of the same tree..just in front of RUFS students hostel of FCT, lisbon. We can see the changes in the tree...from barely any leaves to the stage full green :) Lifes like that sometimes we will get all the happiness and sometimes it takes it all. Sometimes it sks badly..n sometimes it Rocks... But still Life has to go on ..just as this tree bears all weathers and goes on round n round for ages..until it finally dies...we need to keep our heart and spirit going unless it really stops beating :) 2/25/2009 3/22/2009 4/10/2009 5/15/2009 6/5/2009

Today out of sudden, amid the silence, the past began to flashback I found myself among the golden moments of the amazing days Lost my mind and heart in this small moment of happiness And to suppress the tough present, screamed all through my heart My weak heart is accepting the challenges of the time Looser mind hides all the looses binding them all in a chain For a brief moment, all the happiness of life danced in my eyes Among everyone’s laughter, I let myself free All the pains of my heart went up in the spree And I got mad with all the happiness Just when I lost myself in the silence Capitulated life to the colors of youth, for a moment rejoiced like hell All are for me and I am for all, made a promise from my heart’s depth Vowed to walk hands in hand, collected pure feelings all from inside But before I could blink, life changed its colour to force me keep these beside Some soul mates changed the path out of sudden when walking all together Some smiling faces withered like flower